assassain77

Life has a path, filled in a land of complete darkness, the only lights being the path or the goal. Others are there, but not always seen, they can see lights that you can not, and you see lights they do not. In a path of Darkness, no goal in my eyes, you are the only light i see. I can walk any way i choose, but you are always there, moving towards something i can't see.

This is...a dream. I know it's a dream. I remember this... yet it's.... different. The enemy is around this corner. I'm scared for my life, but i can't turn back. One word: "Betrayal." The penalty for betrayal is to be stabbed in the back of the head, behind the left eye. Bodies....all lined up in rows. All of them have the mark of a betrayer. I'm not next am i? Dear god i hope I'm not next...

Beyond the darkness i see light. It is a bright light, far to bright for mine eyes, which have long been shut in darkness. I feel...something, pulling me to the light...but it hurts...it even burns in such a light. I resist the pull, retreating back into the darkness. Where are the shadows, the place between light and darkness. It seems gone...right where the darkness ends there is light. No middle ground. no place to slowly get used to it. I am stuck in darkness. That light again...why is it appearing. Who is opening it for me. Away...close again...i must find the shadows. perhaps i shall reside there.

Before birth i "left" my father, and after birth i "left" my mother. I left..yet was held on to. All decisions were made for me at this time... when to eat, when to sleep... when to do something, what to do, and how to do it. at somewhat older ages i made some decisions...small things..but decisions. Now...when i make decisions that will shape my life....sure...help is very good to have making such decisions. However....every decision i have made...that i truly desire has not just been helped by others building upon it...it has been shot down, and said to be a bad decision. All the decisions that were applauded were things i never wanted for

The heart brings love as well as hate. The heart brings light as well as darkness. It seems to have no neutrality, going only in one or both directions. The heart, love, and hate are all chaos.